So today started out great!
Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.
I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.
But for me?
I took it waaayyyy too far.
For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).
No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.
So, some negatives out of today:
While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.
I ate the whole fucking house.
I feel stupid.
My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.
I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).
Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.
I’m just glad I regained my senses today.
Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.
(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).