Lbs lost: 1
Next week will be much better. (I’ll wait until then to post measurements, too)
From now on, I’m going to treat this a whole lot more like a numbers game.
Numbers are good, are safe, and will not fail me.
My current height is 5’4″ or 163cm
My Current weight is 156 (I weighed myself this morning -thank god I hadn’t messed up too badly; I gained 0,5lb at the most)
As a 17 year old female, that makes my BMR 1.554,5
I want to lose 44lbs in 93 days, or 0,47lbs a day
(Can I just make lbsday^(-1) a unit, now?)
Because 3.500cal = 1lb,
0,47lbsday^(-1) = -1.655,91calday^(-1)
This means my average net should be -101,41calday^(-1)
For practical purposes, I’m going to make my goal nets +100 on weekdays and -250 on weekends.
I’m also going to install a few rules here:
Wish me luck! 🙂
Today my goal net is: -351.41
So today started out great!
Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.
I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.
But for me?
I took it waaayyyy too far.
For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).
No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.
So, some negatives out of today:
While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.
I ate the whole fucking house.
I feel stupid.
My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.
I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).
Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.
I’m just glad I regained my senses today.
Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.
(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).
For god’s sake, I have got to stop eating sweets. It’s killing me.
Today I had a pineapple cake. ONE PINEAPPLE CAKE. TWO BITES.
Guess how many calories?
280 FUCKING CALORIES THAT’S HOW MANY.
They’re ruining me. They’re just so tempting and then you take a bite and THERE GOES MY INTAKE FOR THE DAY and then the cravings start. Seriously, no cravings until I actually eat something and then all I can think about is CARBSCARBSCARBSCARBSCARBS.
New rule: Until the end of these 100 days, NO SWEETS.
Two exceptions: I can have 1 piece of candy and 1 dessert on Halloween and Thanksgiving, respectively but EVERYTHING will count towards intake, so that may cause me to reconsider.
Gummy Vites Calcium Supplement + 30
CQ-10 Supplement + 5
Lipton Chai Tea + 5
1 Pineapple cake + 280
6oz rotisserie chicken breast meat + 312
1 serving of plain Rozini Smart Taste spaghetti + 250 (adding 100 to that because it was a visual estimate and also I know my mother added oil. Luckily, I got out of the sauce because it had mushrooms in it, to which I am allergic. Thank god)
Multivitamin + 5
Total: + 887
887 Jumping Jacks – 0
Total: – 0
I’m feeling much better today, though so hoping to get back into the cardio tomorrow, which should help make a dent on my rapidly decreasing daily allotments for the week.
Net: + 887
Goal net for the next four days: + 2446 This averages out to: + 611/day
Funny, I would have been just fine without the pineapple cake. -_-“
Today was bad. I miss having control. Every time I seem to gain it, I lose it again.
Calcium supplement + 30
STASH premium chai spice decaf tea + 5
Apple Juice box + 30
1/2 Clif Mojo Sweet & Salty Trail mix bar + 95
1 packet M&M’s + 230
1 plain cod fillet + 189
1 small slice oreo cake + 300 (estimation)
1 cup lipton white berry tea + 5
total: + 884
884 Jumping Jacks – 0
none other -still not feeling too hot. I change my mind; being sick does NOT help with restriction. People keep trying to give you sweets (and I fell for them Dx)
At least I don’t have to eat dinner with the fam Wednesday and Thursday, so that will help.
Net: + 884
Goal net for the next five days: + 3333 This averages out to: + 666/day
Yeah, I have strep. I don’t think it’s going to be difficult at all to restrict over the next couple of days. Which is good, because today I found out that I actually weigh 158. fml.
6 Halls Defense Assorted Citrus cough drops + 75
Meijer Gold Chai tea + 5
My mom actually took me to BUTTERBEES. WHY.
1 Chicken tender + 400
1 Potato skin + 83
water with lemon + 5
Lipton white caramel truffle tea + 5
1 potato + 110
1/4 cup Ground beef with taco spice + 100 (estimating)
total + 783
I do 1 jumping jack for every calorie I consume, but don’t count this or bmr in outtake, so:
Net: + 783
That leaves my goal net intake for the next six days to be: 4217cals (average 702 cal a day.. I’m going to have to be careful.)