Day 6 -The epitome of gullibility and wishful thinking.


So today started out great!

Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.

I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.

But for me?

I took it waaayyyy too far.

For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).

No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.

So, some negatives out of today:

While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.

I ate the whole fucking house.

I feel stupid.

Some positives:

My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.

I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).

Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.

I’m just glad I regained my senses today.

Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.

(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).


Day 1 -My throat hurts


Yeah, I have strep. I don’t think it’s going to be difficult at all to restrict over the next couple of days. Which is good, because today I found out that I actually weigh 158. fml.


6 Halls Defense Assorted Citrus cough drops                    +    75

Meijer Gold Chai tea                                                                   +       5

My mom actually took me to BUTTERBEES. WHY.

1 Chicken tender                                                                          + 400

1 Potato skin                                                                                 +    83

water with lemon                                                                        +      5

Lipton white caramel truffle tea                                             +      5

1 potato                                                                                          + 110

1/4 cup Ground beef with taco spice                                    + 100 (estimating)

total                                                                                                 + 783


I do 1 jumping jack for every calorie I consume, but don’t count this or bmr in outtake, so:

–      0

Net:                                                                                                  + 783


That leaves my goal net intake for the next six days to be:  4217cals (average 702 cal a day.. I’m going to have to be careful.)