Day 6 -The epitome of gullibility and wishful thinking.


So today started out great!

Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.

I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.

But for me?

I took it waaayyyy too far.

For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).

No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.

So, some negatives out of today:

While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.

I ate the whole fucking house.

I feel stupid.

Some positives:

My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.

I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).

Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.

I’m just glad I regained my senses today.

Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.

(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).


Day 1 -My throat hurts


Yeah, I have strep. I don’t think it’s going to be difficult at all to restrict over the next couple of days. Which is good, because today I found out that I actually weigh 158. fml.


6 Halls Defense Assorted Citrus cough drops                    +    75

Meijer Gold Chai tea                                                                   +       5

My mom actually took me to BUTTERBEES. WHY.

1 Chicken tender                                                                          + 400

1 Potato skin                                                                                 +    83

water with lemon                                                                        +      5

Lipton white caramel truffle tea                                             +      5

1 potato                                                                                          + 110

1/4 cup Ground beef with taco spice                                    + 100 (estimating)

total                                                                                                 + 783


I do 1 jumping jack for every calorie I consume, but don’t count this or bmr in outtake, so:

–      0

Net:                                                                                                  + 783


That leaves my goal net intake for the next six days to be:  4217cals (average 702 cal a day.. I’m going to have to be careful.)

Starting off


Okay, it’s time to really focus now. For as long as I remember, my weight went up and down in vain attempts to remain skinny. Over the past few months, I’ve lost 62 lbs, and now is the last stretch. I’m giving  myself 100 days of no slip-ups, complete focus. Once I’m done, I should be within range of my goal weight, if not reached.