Day 9 -Probably the only girl in the world looking forward to her period.

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Today, I was depressed and ate ice cream. (stupid v_v)

But then I found two links to websites that I had saved, to make myself feel better.

A BMI calculator that takes into account frame size:

http://tunza.com.au/ThePlanet/templates/theplanet-00/BMICalculator-Index.htm

(I’m “Desirable”)

And a weight-loss over time calculator:

http://www.losertown.org/eats/cal_act.php

Even though I knew the information they both presented me, it made me feel better to see  them represented in graphical form.

I also checked my calendar and YES, my period is on its way. (Thanks @st4bucksadd1ct !) So, now I can stop beating myself up for inexplicably gaining two lbs.

 

As for today, I’m going to hop on that elliptical and burn off those ice cream calories now! (And maybe some extra for dinner)

Mom’s making some homemade chicken wings with her air-fryer. So, not the best, but not debilitating if I only have a few. 

Looking forward to seeing that nice drop (usually by 5lbs) after my period ends. 

Also, for those of you whom didn’t know, females burn more calories (especially during exercise) on their periods, and there’s more likely to be FAT loss than muscle. I’ll touch more on this later, but definitely also looking forward to taking advantage of this -provided I don’t get the munchies. 😉

 

Day 8

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I was so proud of myself -I managed to fast yesterday and work out so I made my net!

And yet today, when I woke up I weighed myself (despite telling myself I wouldn’t) and I gained two pounds. 

 

WHAT DID I DO??!?!?!?!?!??

Please, no one start saying water weight. Water weight is an insignificant little bitch to me. v_v

Anyway, today the madre want to get Wendy’s and bring it home. No, I do not get to chose the meal. We’re splitting a 1220 cal monstrosity

Lord help me.

 

I’m just going to go sulk, now.

Guys, I’m seriously depressed now.

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So I found this website:

http://thighgaphack.com/how-to-calculate-your-thigh-gap/

And I did the calculations, once with measurements from my right side, once with measurements from my left side, and once with average measurements taken.

And either I did the math wrong or for me to have a thigh gap of 0,5″ I must have a thigh circumference of roughly 10,75″ 
That’s more than half of what they are now.
That means, I would have to be able to wrap both hands around my thighs and have a 2,5 inch overlap. I checked.

Well, I guess we’ll see where I’m at when I reach my GW, but seriously depressed now TT_TT

Day 7 – a Numbers Game

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From now on, I’m going to treat this a whole lot more like a numbers game.

Numbers are good, are safe, and will not fail me. 

Okay:

My current height is 5’4″ or 163cm

My Current weight is 156 (I weighed myself this morning -thank god I hadn’t messed up too badly; I gained 0,5lb at the most)

As a 17 year old female, that makes my BMR 1.554,5

I want to lose 44lbs in 93 days, or 0,47lbs a day

(Can I just make lbsday^(-1) a unit, now?)

Because 3.500cal = 1lb, 

0,47lbsday^(-1) = -1.655,91calday^(-1) 

This means my average net should be -101,41calday^(-1)

For practical purposes, I’m going to make my goal nets +100 on weekdays and -250 on weekends.

I’m also going to install a few rules here:

  • no simple sugars/carbohydrates
  • no eating when unnecessary (I mean if I did, that would really make exercise unbearable). This includes when I’m not being watched and not hungry.
  • as few carbohydrates as possible, but ALWAYS <50gday^(-1)
    Fibre does not count
  • I will try my best to avoid the temptation of weighing more than once weekly -on Sunday mornings.
    At this point, I will post my new measurements as well as calculate my new BMR,
    resetting the numbers game.

Wish me luck! 🙂

Today my goal net is: -351.41

Day 6 -The epitome of gullibility and wishful thinking.

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So today started out great!

Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.

I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.

But for me?

I took it waaayyyy too far.

For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).

No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.

So, some negatives out of today:

While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.

I ate the whole fucking house.

I feel stupid.

Some positives:

My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.

I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).

Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.

I’m just glad I regained my senses today.

Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.

(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).