# Day 7 – a Numbers Game

From now on, I’m going to treat this a whole lot more like a numbers game.

Numbers are good, are safe, and will not fail me.

Okay:

My current height is 5’4″ or 163cm

My Current weight is 156 (I weighed myself this morning -thank god I hadn’t messed up too badly; I gained 0,5lb at the most)

As a 17 year old female, that makes my BMR 1.554,5

I want to lose 44lbs in 93 days, or 0,47lbs a day

(Can I just make lbsday^(-1) a unit, now?)

Because 3.500cal = 1lb,

0,47lbsday^(-1) = -1.655,91calday^(-1)

This means my average net should be -101,41calday^(-1)

For practical purposes, I’m going to make my goal nets +100 on weekdays and -250 on weekends.

I’m also going to install a few rules here:

• no simple sugars/carbohydrates
• no eating when unnecessary (I mean if I did, that would really make exercise unbearable). This includes when I’m not being watched and not hungry.
• as few carbohydrates as possible, but ALWAYS <50gday^(-1)
Fibre does not count
• I will try my best to avoid the temptation of weighing more than once weekly -on Sunday mornings.
At this point, I will post my new measurements as well as calculate my new BMR,
resetting the numbers game.

Wish me luck! 🙂

Today my goal net is: -351.41

# Day 6 -The epitome of gullibility and wishful thinking.

So today started out great!

Unfortunately, at around two, shit hit the fan.

I ended up falling into this online mumbo jumbo on how you can think yourself thin. Okay, so before you say anything I know that it may have worked for some people. I understand how it could have -and that’s great.

But for me?

I took it waaayyyy too far.

For a few terrible hours, I was convinced that I could eat whatever the fuck I wanted and still get thin. (excuse the French).

No, I am not posting intake. I am too freaking scared to calculate all that.

So, some negatives out of today:

While I woke up at 156, and completely capable of even burning enough today to make my goal, I didn’t.

I ate the whole fucking house.

I feel stupid.

Some positives:

My stomach is being so unappreciative (especially from the profuse amounts of ice cream and cream cheese) that I will have no problem at all finding the motivation to not eat for maybe the rest of my life.
I wanna purge so badly, my stomach hurts. But I can’t. I promised myself that my b/p days would be over. I’m not going to land in that cycle again.

I did not break my rules for intermittent fasting, strangely enough. (Although I’m wondering how much that’d help me).

Guys, I don’t care who you are. There is one central rule to weight loss/gain/maintenance. And that is Calories in, Calories out. You may have a faster/slower metabolism, and, yes, height and muscle composition plays a key; maybe some foods/supplements do stimulate your metabolism, and after-burn is more than just a myth. Well guess what? That’s still calories in and calories out. You lose sight of this, and you FUCK UP big time.

I’m just glad I regained my senses today.

Now, let’s look full on for tomorrow, eh? Who’s up for two hours of rigorous elliptical-ing? And maybe a niiice, long, insanity marathon.

(Okay I’m not that crazy -I actually have a couple reports I need to get done- but I WILL wake up early to do some workouts).

# Days 4 and 5

Sorry I haven’t updated guys. Nothing much to tell. I fasted for two days, and then broke it in the evening of five with a big box of noodles. (Way to go, she said sarcastically). >o>

Starting tomorrow, new rules:

• STOP eating when NOT hungry at all
• Under 30g carbs a day if possible. If not, 50 Max.
God, I miss ketosis.
• WORK OUT. -_-

Also, another update: I now have an account on THIS website –http://www.fourmilab.ch/hackdiet/online/hdo.html

I go by the name Rho White, apparently, so check on me occasionally. 😉